Nyx (kumori_no_mizu) wrote,
Nyx
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When it rains, it pours

I've kind of noticed something. I don't know if this can relate to anyone else, but in the events of my life, I've noticed an interesting trend.

When it rains, it pours, especially when it deals with death.

I've been noticing it more and more in college more than anything else, but everytime there is a slew of at least somewhat famous celebrity deaths, someone close to me will die either soon or somewhere in the middle. For example:

Freshman Year: Steve Irwin, Tony Jay, Anna Nicole Smith to name some of the widely publicized deaths, followed by my great uncle Bob

Sophomore Year: Heath Leger, Don Lafontaine, George Carlin, Bernie Mac, then my Great Aunt Gwen

Junior Year: Natasha Richardson, Jane Goody, Andrew Martin, and just recently, a friend of mine, Jim Gasser (who some of you rennies from last year remember as the Barbarian King) was killed in a car crash.

Maybe I'm looking too much into this. I mean death comes for us all, right? But what I mean is that whenever it's a celebrity death and it's highly publicized about and there turns out to be a slew of them, someone close to me dies. I don't mean publicized by putting a small notice in the obituary section of a magazine. I mean pages of the person and their death.

So either I am being warned by some higher power that someone close to me might die soon or this is all just one big slew of coincidences. But if this is, they why does it happen in college? why didn't it happen in high school? Maybe it's just me getting older and me getting out more into the world. Maybe it's just the timing. But if senior year Paris Hilton and someone equally or more famous dies and then someone else close to me (not giving an example for fear of jinxing) then I'm going to think otherwise. And when I think about it, it's kind of unsettling.

It's not really a gift that I want to have. I mean humans have the luxury of not knowing when they die so they can somewhat live without that kind of worry. But if someone were to tell you when and how you're going to die, would you believe them? If you did, it would completely floor you, wouldn't it? And if you didn't, what would you think of that person instead? The only thing is that I don't know who is going to die or how for that matter. I just know someone close to me will. I wouldn't know what to do. If anything, I'd start worrying and praying to the gods that one of my friends and family would be bypassed, even though I know one of them has to go. And if I don't know, how will I know who to say goodbye to? How will I let them know how much I care if there's so many people that death could take? I know that death comes for everyone but I don't want it to take anymore of anyone close to me... at least not yet. I know it's a futile plea. But I currently have the best friends that anyone could ever ask for and a caring and loving family that anyone could want. I don't want that to go away. And I'm not ready to go yet either. I've so much that I have left to do.

So if I start to panic whenever someone really famous dies, now you know why

~Nyx

"Here's a lullaby to close your eyes"
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